CRISIS

I refuse to believe i exist just to work 9-5 for n numbers of years and die eventually. I refuse to believe i was born just to mindlessly scroll through social media and sleep dissatisfied. I refuse to believe my purpose of life is to just make a living doing something i completely dislike.
I am privileged enough to be born as a human being , the most intellectual being of all and what am i really doing with this privilege? NOTHING ! And the world around me is just telling me to find a way of minting decent amount of money instead of truly discovering who i am?
I spend myraid nights thinking if god was kind enough to give me a life of human being isn’t it my obvious duty to prove him right. How can i just take birth and just die without making an impact , without making a change without making the most of everything i have . There must be some purpose for sending me to earth , i must use this to make a change , raise a voice or atleast just to make a LIFE . I don’t want to earn to make a living , even ants somehow manage to live what matters to me is making a life out of whatever i do . I want to devote myself to something i can be really proud of not now but after 10 years or 20 years or 50 years.  I want to discover the reason for my existence .  Money is important , but happiness is essential.