CRISIS

I refuse to believe i exist just to work 9-5 for n numbers of years and die eventually. I refuse to believe i was born just to mindlessly scroll through social media and sleep dissatisfied. I refuse to believe my purpose of life is to just make a living doing something i completely dislike.
I am privileged enough to be born as a human being , the most intellectual being of all and what am i really doing with this privilege? NOTHING ! And the world around me is just telling me to find a way of minting decent amount of money instead of truly discovering who i am?
I spend myraid nights thinking if god was kind enough to give me a life of human being isn’t it my obvious duty to prove him right. How can i just take birth and just die without making an impact , without making a change without making the most of everything i have . There must be some purpose for sending me to earth , i must use this to make a change , raise a voice or atleast just to make a LIFE . I don’t want to earn to make a living , even ants somehow manage to live what matters to me is making a life out of whatever i do . I want to devote myself to something i can be really proud of not now but after 10 years or 20 years or 50 years.  I want to discover the reason for my existence .  Money is important , but happiness is essential.

Indian obsession with fair skin is well known. Since decades Indians have treated dark skin as a “disease” which needs to be “cure” . If you’re a brown girl in India , aunties coming up to you with remedies to lighten your skin tone is not an alien concept. From tumeric to lemon , honey to sandalwood aunties have plethora of ridiculous remedies .

It’s just so ironical that the color which makes indian distant from others is treated as disgrace in it’s own country . Your academic qualification , you inherited skills , your myraid capabilities , your personality EVERY THING is secondary in estimating your worth because it’s your skin color which will decide your destiny.

There are so many instances of girls being rejected for marriage stating she was “too dark”. There are numerous reports of rejection in jobs stating “not enough appealing “. And automatically all these combined have resulted in lack of confidence among young girls. And fairneds industry took this under confidence as their opportunity to flourish in India. As per reports , revenue of fairness industries is estimated to be $20 millions in India. From creams to face mask , from face wash to skin lightening treatment there are dozens of products and services included in this industry.

It’s 2020 and Indians obsession hasn’t declined a tiny bit. Enforcement by societal pressure have led lakhs and crore of girls opting for skin lightening treatment with a hope of getting acceptance from society.

An attribute which is completely out of the control of the person is given the utmost importance here. When did skin color become so important ? How can someone’s color of skin be the parameter of self worth ? How can someone’s skin be a essential tick box while recruiting , while fixing marrige ? Will this fair obsession will ever leave us.

Graduation is supposed to be “THE MOST MEMORABLE” event in one’s life . From farewell to graduation dinner , from scribble days to joining FIRST ever office of life graduation is suppose to be filled with thrill and excitement.
Batch of 2020 didn’t get any such thing tho , no scribble day , no last official classes , no farewell , no graduation dinner , no new job openings  NOT even a chance to say good bye properly. We all had our plans for the last semester but we weren’t able to execute any. From college canteen to kamla nagar , from library lawn to cafes , from classes to metro , from e rickshaw to college gate the memories attach to all of them is numerous. We went to college one day complete oblivion to the fact that it was our LAST DAY.  All we wish is some more time. Time to endlessly chat in ashoka lawn or time to just go to kamla one last time or time to just plan to meet at kg once again. Honestly one thing this corona virus has taught us is that ” one thing that certain about future is it’s UNCERTAINTY”. There is no point of over thinking , worrying or even planning about future. Present is all we have.  So , let’s just all  concentrate more on making our present exciting , enjoying whatsoever we have rather than dwelling in sadness by obsessing over future. Because future has it’s own plan .

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton